Alive but worried!

[michka]

Hi Everyone,
I went for my breast reconstruction surgery by gluteal flap (buttocks) and almost never came back. The operation lasted 7, 5 hours.
I had an internal hemorrhage that they didn’t see for hours and although I kept saying I was feeling worse and worse, they didn’t understand. This went on for 3 hours. I was getting weaker and weaker and at the end I could not speak or even raise my hand to ask for help. Strangely, I was very calm. I realized I was about to die and thought of my loved boys and companion. I was so weak and my brain was working so slow that I had no fear. And then a miracle happened. A nurse from intensive care walked by to ask her friend nurses something personal. She understood what was happening. Then within 2 minutes I had 5 doctors and nurses around me and I fainted.
I had a 2 litre transfusion which must be half of my blood volume. (red cells plasma and platelets).

This happened 12 days ago. Now I am home. I feel very very tired. I am so afraid of the consequences of this massive transfusion.

I have 2 questions maybe someone can answer:
Can Faslodex have accelerated a hemorrhage? I ask this question because they are puzzled and did not really find where the hemorrhage started.
I am on Faslodex since November. I have no metastasis but I could not support Aromasin very well. My onc suggested switching to Faslodex.

Worse: I read people with cancer who had a transfusion had much higher recurrence rates.
Anybody know about this? I want to know the truth.

I feel very down but I can tell you I am so happy to be here on our forum,
Michka