chemoembolization

[Andrea Barnett Budin]

Hi Karen, my sweet Sister,

I wish I had medical advice re your situation, but I surely understand your fear and indeed panic. I imagine most of us have been there. Here's what I've learned on this score.

I too have felt desperate, deep in the woods, but I kept reminding myself that I was not lost. My body ached with the death of my cancer cells, but my Spirit felt strong, brave and determined. I KNEW the storm would not touch my core. I would not let it! My will was great and I seemed to possess the awareness that I would triumph. Despite it all, I stayed steadfast. This is what I am praying will come to fill your thoughts.

I KNOW that thoughts that are filled with panic and dismal prospects -- will attract that to us. So, I work each day at acknowledging these destructive thoughts, experiencing them, venting them (by talking to others and writing my feelings down, as you are doing!) and then ridding myself of all that damning negativity!

Toxic thoughts have a similar effect as toxic substances. We don't want them in our body -- or in our mind. Remember -- delay is not denial. Though your desired results are not now at hand, that does not mean you have failed. Let's at least wait for the CT scan results, to see whether this course of tx is working. There are other options should it prove not to be the correct piece to your puzzle.

The tangible evidence of your efforts lies before you. Trust that this is so. BELIEF is far more powerful than hope. To call your desired outcome to you, infuse your thoughts with this electrifying might. AS YOU EXPECT THE BEST, SO IT WILL BE. It is a Universal Law.

Let go of all the horrid scenarios that are darting out you. Instead, see yourself vividly -- surrounded by family and LOVE. The cancer will slowly recede against the strength of your Soul and will!

Do not mistake what you know for all there is. Surely, investigate every avenue, but with a calm of being led. What you can control are your thoughts. In fact, this is your job as a patient who will not settle for anything less than success.

My arms surround you, and my prayers and loving, healing energy are streaming out to you. I believe you can feel this as you read my words. Breathe, my sweet Sister. You must be a positive entity. Let how you respond tell all who you truly are, a Warrior Queen, full of grace and courage. Know that you are never alone. Never. I believe Teachers, Guides and Guardian Angels walk with us. Stay strong, brave and determined, Karen. Release the fears. Fear and faith cannot occupy the same space. Open your heart and let Universal LOVE fill you up to overflowing. It will help you stay the course. You are headed to victory. Hold on to that thought, please...
Andi