UPDATE....2 days post Mastectomy...

[Tricia]

Hello Everyone.... Thank you all so much for the thoughts and prayer and good words. I wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I had surgery on THursday at about noon...Surgeon said everything went well...did have to cut one nerve that went to the back of my arm...no biggie...I guess just numb. I wont know the status of the lymph nodes until Monday but anxiously awaiting that news. I must say that feeling my now flat breast with the badages on really seemed okay... but yesterday when the surgeon came in to check on me and removed the bandages.... I saw such an ugly sight..... I looked up at my husband and just sobbed and sobbed...I really thought I was emotionally prepared for the loss...but seeing it and how ugly it was and so painful.... But I have had lots of positive affirmations....from those around me that love me.... I know this is all temporary too... I will have reconstruction after I am finished with my chemo which will be this time next year. It amazes me how well prepared I thought I was.... and in reality I wasnt at all. But I love coming here to this place of acceptance and refuge and hear your stories and the things that helped you all through your war on cancer. Glod Bless you all and all your family members that have walked the road with you.... as even being there for someone else is not the easy road....my husband is there with me every step of the way and I know his part even though he is not afflicted himself is just as rough.