I'm really scared, can't stop crying

[HavahJ]

I'm so frantic about the liver mets and waiting to see if the chemo is working. I don't know how to figure out all the death stuff. I'm so alone. I had a single met for so long - I just didn't expect this. How do all of you stay so positive? Your religion thing? Anyway, I really need just pain support. Most people in my shape will be dead within a year, 2 at most. You people on the boards are the lucky ones. I guess I'm falling completely apart. HavahJ I don't know where or how to post it. I'm from Minnepolis, Minnesota and my email is HavahJ@aol.com.