[Lori R]

Alecia,
So many wise words, so I thought I would select a few that resonated with me.

*Rolepaul's comment about taking on a lover named cancer. I agree...I have Friday afternoon dates (chemo treatment), I think about him constantly, I schedule vacations around him. It is perfectly normal for our spouses to be jealous of the time and emotions we devote. Even though we rationally know that we have not asked for this lover to enter our lives. Rolepaul, your comment will help me be more sensitive to my wonderful care giving husband. Just an interesting perspective.

*Working - sometimes we all need a breather. So I encourage you to take the time you need. However, I have worked through 4 (or is it 5) rounds of chemo. In my case, it is a good thing. Work forces me at times to get up, get dressed, break the cycle of negative thoughts. I do think that if you feel physically up to it, the social interaction provided at work is incredibly helpful.

Kellennea- I thought I was the only one that cried my eyes out in the shower and also thought about just sitting down on the bathroom floor for some more tears. Thank you for sharing your sad moments as there are others with the exact same emotions.

Finally, Alecia...I do encourage you to consider counseling with your husband. I went with my husband a couple times a month for 3 months. It set aside time to share feelings. (which is easily overlooked in our busy day to day lives) There was a little anger and having a third party moderate was very effective. As a side note, the counseling even helped us through some old, lingering issues that had nothing to do with cancer. Why, why didn't I do this earlier???

I hope you have found eveyone's input insightful.

Lori