[Mary Anne in TX]

Hi Emelie!

It is a sad occasion any way you look at it! I tried everything I could to talk my surgeon into just doing a lumpectomy, even at the last minute when the anesthesiologist(sp) was getting ready to send me "night-night"! Even though I knew there was no chance (cancer too many places and in the nipple), I gave it my best so that I wouldn't be questioning my decision later. But the surgery went well, little or no pain, and I got clean margins. Most of all, I was so very grateful for being alive. The first three months after surgery, I felt like I was always doing the cover-up act, not wanting people to see me. But as time went on, I have learned to wear my prosthesis and clothes that make me feel "pretty" again. I'm still sad about having to go thru it all, but much, much happier that I did it and have a shot at more life! Take time to be sad and grieve. Then as you can, get back up and go again. You are still all you, with or without that breast. Even cancer can't take that "special who we are" out of us! Best wishes for a smooth ride on Thursday and the days ahead. I'll be thinking good thoughts for you! Life will still deliver some magnificent opportunities for you. mary anne