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Havah,

I feel the fear in your post. We are all afraid and it's perfectly normal to feel that way. I thought I had this dreadful disease beat and WHAM - mets to the lungs and brain! It's difficult to keep a positive attitude and stay strong but somehow we manage to put on a happy face and carry on. I wish I could just reach out to you and give you a big hug and let you have a good cry on my shoulder. I know what keeps me going and that's my one and only grandson. I look at him everyday and tell myself keep fighting. Perhaps an in person support group or even professional counselling would help you. Ask you oncologoist office if they have someone on staff that can help you deal with your fears. I know my oncologist has a physcologist on staff and I'm free to make an appointment with him at any time. I will keep you in my prayers.