[ammebarb]

Just lost a rather long post, so I'm starting over....Hope it doesn't appear twice. Just back from seeing the retinal specialist who referred me to Wills. The good news is that the eye tumor has shrunk and is no longer covering the optic nerve. The retinal detachment that had been caused by the tumor has reattached since it has shrunk. It was a relief to know that the plaque seems to be working....It is a very effective treatment, but in a small percentage of cases, doesn't work. Then it's either done again or the eye is surgically removed. The Dr. was very grim about my genetic test results, and that brought me very low. Hubby and I talked on the way home and decided that nothing is worse than when I went for this appointment. We think he probably never sees choroidal melanoma in his practice and is used to giving folks much better prognoses than I got. Think he was also impressing on us that I had better plan to take adjuvant therapy....a given. I wouldn't have been so affected by his attitude regarding the testing if I weren't struggling for optimism and hope as it is. Trying to figure out if I need an antidepressant. Still taking my ativan and a sleeping pill. Any suggestions, warriors? You all know what it is to battle for a decent attitude. Prayers for all of you every night.
Barb A.