[Lettik]

Hello all, I am relatively new to this site, but I was diagosed with Stage IV er-/pr- Her2+ grade3 in November 2009.

I was in shock and didn't have a personal computer at the time, so I read everything, and I mean everything I could. Sometimes, I was sorry I did because I didn't know what to think about treatment, survival, doctors, and advice, so I went into overload. Since we are all different, what worked for one may not work for another.

Then there were times, when I was very discouraged and so, I wrote. I wrote about all of it. I wrote when I was angry, when I didn't understand what was going on with my body. I wrote when I was depressed and I wrote trying to change my attitude. Then, I just stopped!?

I made an appontment to see a therapist, but she was 20 or more years younger than I was, and wanted to know what I was hoping to get out of the sessions.
What? See you later.

Then it was going to the breast cancer support group, but they really didn't want someone who was Stage IV and facing "no cure" as they called it.

In Octobger, 2011, my older brother sent me a laptop as a surprise gift. I was also thankful, grateful, and blessed, not only to him, but because I found this site.

Even though I didn't post, I read most everything on this site. When I found this thread, I could not believe the heartfelt stories and how much, some of you have been through. It has been my motivation, inspiration, and comfort, on those days when I just cannot stop the mind from thinking about cancer. I would like to get to the day when "cancer" it is not on my mind, when I wake in the morning and when I go to bed at night.

Thanks to this site, and all of you, I believe I will get there.

Healing energy to all,
Lettik