[Believe51]

Jennifer, my heart sobs hearing she is not feeling well and needed to be hospitalized. Please tell her to be patient with herself as they try to figure out exactly what is happening with her. They will rush to get these answers for her as quickly as possible and it is okay for you to make sure that they are. Your job is to 'not' feel like an overbearing caregiver and mediate the entire process of investigating. Of course this is easy to say and very trying to accomplish.

Joy has every right to feel all of these emotions but we need her to stay strong. The best place to be to expedite these happenings is to be in the hospital, which is an awful place to be when one is this ill. If you asked my opinion I would say too that this is not the beginning of the end for her. I say this from the heart and with all its heartfelt emotions. We have seen miracles here and I believe that we all could be the next one to receive that gift. She is having complications, Jennifer and I say this without belittling the situation for these are the same shoes for which I stand.

I believe with the information they gather for her will allow her to focus on just what fight to fight. I cry as I write but I still believe that this information is vital to the next choices she makes. I take it that this is belly and liver pain? I ask this because my husband (bone/brain mets) is in the worst pain ever in this journey and only sleeps because he passes out from pain. I am worried about him too.

Let Joy know not to lose faith and hope right now and again this is no easy feat. Let the doctors explore and supply her with the facts. Even when the facts look dim, there is always a shimmer of hope. Tell her Believe51 (Marie) loves her and is keeping her in prayer. I pray for you too, Jennifer, your job as a sister and loving caregiver does not go unnoticed. I am so happy to know that this woman I love is surrounded by all things good. Let her know that I believe and have witnessed miracles and I beg for her to have one of her very own. And Jennifer, let her know I still believe. Please breathe Dearheart, we walk besides you all as you find out exactly where she stands.......and remember that 'shimmer', a shimmer is all we need. She is a fighter and I think now she just needs to know what to fight.

We are here for you too. Let her know we only want her to do her best and this family will do the rest! Lots of love.>>Believe51