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Old 04-16-2014, 05:26 PM   #6
Andrea Barnett Budin
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Re: debsing is an angel

It is true Deb carried you in her heart, and will for eternity, I have no doubt. Your mother did the best she could, up against a great foe. She fought to remain with you. And I agree, she would not want you to think of slaughter.

I see cancer as a bodily dysfunction. I can't even hate it. I seek only to defeat it, for myself, and for all who find themselves struggling for their lives against it.

Your mother adored you, as mother's do. She will live in your heart. I know you'll make her proud.

So deeply sorry for your loss.

We all thank you for taking the time to let us know about our Debsing. That is so very kind of you. We do worry about one another, and we all knew we needed to pray extra hard for your mom. She reached out to us. And we responded as lovingly as we could. You are a very caring and thoughtful young woman.

I'm sorry, I do not know your name, but I feel your sadness and I am sending you hugs.

Please feel free to post here anytime you have the need or desire. We are here for you. We know how difficult this must be for you. Keep talking to your mom, honey. She will hear you, and try to respond. Watch for the signs.

With love,
Andi
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'95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive...

'98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!)
+ good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either...

Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...
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