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Re: Sheila has earned her wings
Jen,
I'm so very sorry for the pain you are feeling. I lost my mom a few years ago, and someone gave me a poem.
The idea was that a loved one leaving us, is like a boat sailing off into the horizon...
as the people on the side she's leaving catch their last glimpse of her and say sadly, "There she goes"...
the people on the other side of the horizon catch their first glimpse of her and shout, "Here she comes!"
I still get great comfort when I think of all the people who love my mom and were waiting for her on the other side. It helps me to know that when I cross over...she'll be waiting, and overjoyed to welcome me too.
You have rough days ahead, no doubt about it. But you have Sheila's genes...and more importantly, her spirit. You can do it. You'll go on, remembering your mom, loving her, and caring for those she loves...especially Jazzy and Sheila's beloved Jen.
Thank you so much for sharing Sheila's final days with us. I will miss her so much...but it would have been much harder if you hadn't helped us to ease into her transition. I appreciate your generous spirit.
All the best to you, and to your family
With love,
Denise
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1/11-needle biopsy
2/11-Lumpectomy/axillary node dissection - Stage 3c, ER/PR-14/17 nodes
3/11 - Post-op staph infection,cellulitis, lymphedema,seroma,ARRRGH!
4/12/11-A/C x 4, then T/H x 4, H only,Q3 weeks
8/26/11 finished Taxol!!!
10/7/11 mastectomy/DIEP recon
11/11 radiation x28
1/12/12 1st CANCER-VERSARY!
1/12 Low EF/Herceptin "Holiday" :(
2/12 EF up - Back on Herceptin, heart meds
4/2/1212 surgery to repair separated incision from DIEP recon
6/8/12 Return to work :)
6/17/12 Fall, shatter wrist,surgery to repair/insert plate :(
7/10/12 last Herceptin
7/23/12 Brain Mets %$&#! 3cm and 1cm
8/10/12 Gamma knife surgery, LOTS of steroids;start H/Tykerb
8/23/12 Back to work
12/20/12 Injure back-3 weeks in wheel chair
1/12/13 2nd CANCER-VERSARY!
1/14/13 herniate disk in back - surgery to repair
1/27/13 Radiation necrosis - edema in brain - back on steroids - but not back to work - off balance, poor cordination in right arm
5/3/13 Start Avastin to shrink necrosis
5/10/13 begin weaning steroids
6/18/13 Brain MRI - Avastin seems to be working!
6/20/13 quarterly CT - chest, abdomen, pelvis - All Clear!
7/5/13 finally off steroids!!
7/7/13 joined the ranks of the CHEMO NINJAS I am now Tekuto Ki Ariku cancer assassin!
7/13/13 Symptoms return - back on steroids
7/26/13 Back on Avastin - try again!
8/26/13 Not ready to return to classroom yet :( But I CAN walk without holding onto things! :)
9/9/13 Brain MRI - fingers crossed
“ Life is a grindstone, and whether it grinds you down or polishes you up is for you, and you alone, to decide. ” – Cavett Robert
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