[CristlC]

Thanks to you all for your support. I am so scared and can't keep a clear head. I feel like this has taken over my life. HOpefully once all these decisions are made and all this has started my state of mind will improve. I think you are right,,, the anticipation is the worst. I made myself crazy before my bi-lateral as well. My mom died at 38 and I watched what the chemo did to her and I think that is in the back of mind even though I know it is much different now.

Again, thanks to all. I sure helps to here from people doing the same types of things.