[chrisy]

Laurie,

Think of it this way: you have cells in your body that have misbehaved and tomorrow morning you are going to have that threat removed.
Also, when you arrive in the morning, if you still feel anxious, ask them to give you something for it.

It's important to have your family and friends around you at this time. Here's a nice ritual you might want to do tonight, it's totally self indulgent and will probably make you weepy but in a good way:

Gather all your friends around you in a circle, each with an unlit candle. One at a time, have them say a little prayer or a blessing or something about how much they love you, while lighting their candle. Have them surround you with this love and strength and carry that with you tomorrow. Then ask them to repeat their prayer for you in the morning, at the time you are headed for surgery.

When I had my surgery, I asked everyone to send me positive loving vibes at the moment my surgery was scheduled to begin. As it was, I was still waiting around at that time but I FELT this jolt of love hit me right at that time. I wasn't really thinking about it, and I got this I don't know, energy surge right in my chest. I remember thinking "wow, that was weird", then I looked at the clock and it was the moment I was supposed to be in surgery. I swear this really happened! And I wasn't on any meds at the time, either.

So take that for what it's worth, I'll be sending my love for you tomorrow.

much love
Chris