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linn65 · 11-26-2014, 06:27 AM

Yes, I said it the life altering drugs are not making me a happy camper! I go for my herceptin/projecta today, and never look forward to the 3 hour round trip.

This is number 5, and I know I am A newbie to treatment for life......today, I am mad, I want to cry, I want to quit.....today this being my life isn't wanted. This to shall pass as my Grandma would say. I think I was riding on the shock of it all and now it's reality. It's hard for me to except no end game besides it doesn't make sense anymore.....meaning treatment is done and die.

I know people can live for years on treatment, and I just don't know how you continue to get through.

So I am sitting here drinking my coffee thinking and crying about my 12:30 appt today and rather be anywhere else.

On a positive note the visible lump has swollen.

11-26-2014, 06:27 AM	#1
linn65 Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Attica, IN Posts: 371	Is it okay to cuss on here?? Cuz this is a Bitch Yes, I said it the life altering drugs are not making me a happy camper! I go for my herceptin/projecta today, and never look forward to the 3 hour round trip. This is number 5, and I know I am A newbie to treatment for life......today, I am mad, I want to cry, I want to quit.....today this being my life isn't wanted. This to shall pass as my Grandma would say. I think I was riding on the shock of it all and now it's reality. It's hard for me to except no end game besides it doesn't make sense anymore.....meaning treatment is done and die. I know people can live for years on treatment, and I just don't know how you continue to get through. So I am sitting here drinking my coffee thinking and crying about my 12:30 appt today and rather be anywhere else. On a positive note the visible lump has swollen. __________________ myleftlump.wordpress.com - started blogging my IDC breast cancer 7/2012 diagnosed with multiple solid lesions 7/20/12 biopsy done. ER+ 30 PR -, HER+++,k167 80% Grade 2 9/2012 biopsy on lymph node - showed malignant 9/2012 Pre-adjunctive TCH chemo. 12/6/12 MRI after Pre-adj. Results: Modest Decrease in size of left breast malignancy As well as the associated satellite lesions and auxiliary Adenopathy compared to prior study. Doctors hoped for better but good response it didn't grow. 12/18/2012 left masectomy with axillary nodes Size 3.2 CM, Nottingham score 9/9 Grade 3, no evidence of in situ carcinoma Areas of angiolymphatic are identified Carcinoma is 0.5 cm from inked deep Margin of excision Attached axillary lymph nodes: metastatic Carcinoma in 6 of 8 nodes. Size of largest node 1.5 cm Extracapsular ER + 73%, PR+2%, HER2+ 2/27/13 6 weeks of IMRT radiation finished 2/2013 Started on Tamoxifan 5 years. 8/2013 will take last Herceptin, 17 treatments total every 3 weeks. BRCA1 & BRAC2 - Negative August 28, 2013 DIEP flap on the left breast. February 2014 Nip & Tuck March 14, 2014 nipple reconstruction and removed port. August 14, 2014 lump in lymph nodes under arm and above clavicle. Stage IV August 28, 2014 herceptin And projeta starting and port put back in. 3/18/15 stopped arimidex. 3/18/15 progression....Tdm1