[CarolineC]

Wow, you have been through SO MUCH-you WILL find Karen again. Fortunately you can trust your chemo team. Maybe they can slow the infusion since you are still healing.

I have a very hard time trusting my local MO. Three years ago, when it came time to possibly have rads he said he didn't think I would need them, so I asked to be referred to a larger centre where the RO recommended I have them. Two years ago when I was having issues (that's what I call them now) and ALOT of pain he wouldn't order a bonescan. I went to my gp who ordered one. (she had been telling me I was fine when I told her something wasn't right for eight months) When I had the scan a week later I had a 3cm lesion through the sternum to the tissue behind where a shadow was noticed, and THEN people listened. I have major PTSD and trust issues because of those and other incidents with other doctors. It takes alot for me to advocate for myself and many times I will go to an appointment and think "which wall shall I bang my head against today" because I'm still having great debates with my local MO.

Your chemo facility at least is separate from the hospital and your nurses are like your family-a real comfort. You are healing and all WILL be good tomorrow.