[chrisy]

Most days I have moments when I wish it would all go away! One of my "balanced goals" in my business networking group was to keep current on research and treatments without obsessing. Pretty funny, huh! I am grateful for this board because there are so many knowledgable and diligent researchers here (Tom used to call them propellerheads!) that I feel like I can just dip into the well of knowledge. And only obsess a little.

Funny, but taking the Tykerb makes it harder for me to detach from the Stage IV reality. First thing every morning, I open up that bottle and take those 6 bright orange pills and think, "poo". Maybe I'm just anticipating...
But then most days I somehow just go on doing my life. Yes, in retrospect is was a luxury to not think about your mortality every day! Now the luxury is to enjoy and appreciate, really savor every moment of it. Most "normal" people also don't realize how special each minute is. Not that I wouldn't love to just take things for granted again!

Answering the "when will you be done with chemo" question depends for me on who is asking and what they want/need to know. You're right, they just don't get it. I usually say "until it stops working", or sometimes "another 47 years".

Hey, who needs normal, anyhow...