[Believe51]

I want to add that seeing him like this is not fair to me either damn it!! I want to move on with my life, with or without him, this is not his fault and I place no blame. My quality of life is borderline sucking right now! I did not mind all the sacrifices, giving up the motorcycle or the Cadillac (wah-smiling), I could live without the romance and the copious amounts of sleep he does, I could live without the normalcy and through the difficulties, I did not mind losing sleep or having my body, my face take a beating aging me for what seems like 10 years. I am tired My friend, in my heart I cannot live seeing him like this anymore. I am not losing my fight, but I am tired.

I did not want to write either post because I am not giving up....but I mean it.....either overcome or be taken quickly. This is about him and always has been but now it is also about me.

Thanks Patty, I am thankful that I can inspire as I bare my soul, I want this journey to keep giving back. You will never really know just what a private person I am in life outside of bc even though I have many friends in my world. I do not let many people inside very deep but felt that this journey was ours as well as yours. I am glad that our journey can and always will help others, I know your journeys have done the same for us. Ooooo, leaving before the tears fall.>>Marie