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NEDenise · 09-25-2012, 05:23 PM

Jessica,
I think I have a good idea of what you're feeling.
I won't know until early November whether the gammaknife was a success, and whether anything else has popped up.

I get the "every little twinge makes me think...is it the cancer?" thing...
I never used to feel that way...
but now that it has attacked my brain, I figure why not other places too!?

It's easy to say, "Don't worry till you know",
"worrying won't keep it away",
"Don't borrow trouble"...
and I know all that.
I've given that advice too!

But, like you...the uncertainty is always there,
gnawing away at my peace of mind.

You're always in my prayers...we brain met survivors have to look out for each other

...

but I'll really, really be pestering the Almighty on your behalf for the next few days, my friend!

Be good to yourself
Denise

09-25-2012, 05:23 PM	#5
NEDenise Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: Philly Suburbs Posts: 1,709	Re: Scanxiety - Brain MRI & Full Body PET tomorrow~ Jessica, I think I have a good idea of what you're feeling. I won't know until early November whether the gammaknife was a success, and whether anything else has popped up. I get the "every little twinge makes me think...is it the cancer?" thing... I never used to feel that way... but now that it has attacked my brain, I figure why not other places too!? It's easy to say, "Don't worry till you know", "worrying won't keep it away", "Don't borrow trouble"... and I know all that. I've given that advice too! But, like you...the uncertainty is always there, gnawing away at my peace of mind. You're always in my prayers...we brain met survivors have to look out for each other ... but I'll really, really be pestering the Almighty on your behalf for the next few days, my friend! Be good to yourself Denise __________________ 1/11-needle biopsy 2/11-Lumpectomy/axillary node dissection - Stage 3c, ER/PR-14/17 nodes 3/11 - Post-op staph infection,cellulitis, lymphedema,seroma,ARRRGH! 4/12/11-A/C x 4, then T/H x 4, H only,Q3 weeks 8/26/11 finished Taxol!!! 10/7/11 mastectomy/DIEP recon 11/11 radiation x28 1/12/12 1st CANCER-VERSARY! 1/12 Low EF/Herceptin "Holiday" :( 2/12 EF up - Back on Herceptin, heart meds 4/2/1212 surgery to repair separated incision from DIEP recon 6/8/12 Return to work :) 6/17/12 Fall, shatter wrist,surgery to repair/insert plate :( 7/10/12 last Herceptin 7/23/12 Brain Mets %$&#! 3cm and 1cm 8/10/12 Gamma knife surgery, LOTS of steroids;start H/Tykerb 8/23/12 Back to work 12/20/12 Injure back-3 weeks in wheel chair 1/12/13 2nd CANCER-VERSARY! 1/14/13 herniate disk in back - surgery to repair 1/27/13 Radiation necrosis - edema in brain - back on steroids - but not back to work - off balance, poor cordination in right arm 5/3/13 Start Avastin to shrink necrosis 5/10/13 begin weaning steroids 6/18/13 Brain MRI - Avastin seems to be working! 6/20/13 quarterly CT - chest, abdomen, pelvis - All Clear! 7/5/13 finally off steroids!! 7/7/13 joined the ranks of the CHEMO NINJAS I am now Tekuto Ki Ariku cancer assassin! 7/13/13 Symptoms return - back on steroids 7/26/13 Back on Avastin - try again! 8/26/13 Not ready to return to classroom yet :( But I CAN walk without holding onto things! :) 9/9/13 Brain MRI - fingers crossed “ Life is a grindstone, and whether it grinds you down or polishes you up is for you, and you alone, to decide. ” – Cavett Robert