[Pam P]

Mary Anne - what a beautiful response, lovely, thoughtful, and so true.

Dawn - I can't say anything more heartfelt than what MA wrote - only to add "Amen" to what she said.

For me that anxious feeling definitely has gotten easier. In the beginnning it was all consuming - like you describe for yourself. Do whatever you need to do as hard as it is to break through it. Talk to a counselor, friends,support group, whoever can help you voice the fears and to help put some of the anxiety into perspective. Talk to the dr about anti-depressents to help. Get out of bed, get out the door, stay engaged with what brings you happiness and life today. Then TRUST. You have a plan, a trt to manage this met, you are in good health, and have good care. As the months go by the anxiety may still be there, but consumes less of your day and energy. As the years go by you realize you are living with cancer, as a cancer survivor and life is good. One day at a time, one step at a time... What you are feeling is normal. Accept the feelings, let them out and let them go. Meditation helps me.... find what's helpful for you. Then allow yourself to relax and accept calm and joy and life happening right now. Now I'm rambling... just keep hugging the kids, enjoying each day, and living life.