[Jean]

Dear Marsh,
What your feeling is very natural - especially after chemo/ and soon you will be completing herceptin. I found with each mile stone, a concern, the treatments, as much as we don't want to have them, make us feel in contol of the cancer. That we are actively doing something to protect ourselves. Please know, that each step you take on this journey is a learning experience. You will gradually build your confidence back.
Try concentrating on the positive side that the chemo/herceptin is bringing you to wellness. Treat yourself to something special as you complete
each step - which will enforce the good side of this experience. Yes,
there is a good side, yes, this is a challenge, but know there are many many of us who are survivors. Say to yourself daily, "I can beat this" a positive attitude helps. (Besides your haflway there) as you said, you used to be a happy -glass half filled person. Well, she is still there,
a bit shattered, shocked, and shook up, like all of us are/were/and will be from time to time. Every day is a gift, for everyone, even if you don't have cancer. It's just that those of us who have been dx. have had a wake up call. Enjoy each and every day, and remember you are never alone, you have the support and love of every beautiful lady/and/men
on this board.

God Bless,
Jean