[Laurel]

I am not stage IV, but I do know stress and uncertainty having been embroiled in a terrible family discord that has churned away for over 5 years now. I do suggest this: take vacations. You may whittle them down to skinny adventures financially, but the act of getting away with family or friends is important. We remember the good fun and relaxed atmospheres of vacations long after the event has passed. They are a time where we pause out of our busy, stressful lives and decompress. It is time well spent.

I am sorry you are in this endless turmoil and pray you live in the land of NED, as many of our Stage 4 gals have done, for years on end. Cancer and the fear of death is a specter, a shadow or pall, over our lives, but do try to find a way to LIVE the moments of your life. That is a tough task, I know, but worth embracing.