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thanks friends

Well i am writing to you from the hospital after I nearly suffocated after my first dose of navelbine +h. I was put on high O2. I have stopped oxigen now but I am very breathless when I have to move. cant walk much.

I have been suffering from spike in temperature for 6 weeks which makes my quality of life very poor.

I was not accepted on the trial around where i live and they took 5 weeks to look at my case and wasted my time.

Scan show progession to new places: neck and liver in 8 weeks.

I am a mess after navelbine chemo, my lung hurts and cant manage to get any sleep at the hospital 4 days. I have decided to go home tomorrow whatever.

I have won many many battles, endured many treatments. No one can say that I have not turned every stones and fighted every corners kicking and scratching. But I am now showing the white flag.

For the first time I am happy that I don't have a family, because thinking of not seeing my dog in the future is soooo painful already. do you know when I cough she comes and lick my neck she is amazing and so sweet. I have found her a lovely god mother who has a dog already and the dogs play so well together so I know she will be happy.

I know that I will not be accept in any trials in my state and chemo sent me to hospital. And cant travel any more for a trial anyway. If you have any idea let me know

not good news indeed

All love