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It has been a good week, until today
I couldn't focus today, my body aches, tingly hands and to top it off my emotions went from 0 to 10 I think. I had my herceptin on Tuesday and it seems it builds up in my mind, body and spirit. Then I have a couple hour cry, and I am drained. I work on doing proactive things ; cleaned house, visited a friend, and went to nursing home to see my dad recovering from open heart. Also, my son is home from college 7 hours away and he stopped in my office for 10 minutes and he was off.. But he told me ex husband and his new livin GF bought all new appliances, making our old two car garage there bedroom, putting on a new deck and life is good/great couldn't get any better. Then I had emotion over that. 20 year marriage and divorced for 5. In this last year of me going thru treatment he has been the happiest in his life. I have had so much reflection this year. Knowing our son will never have a family unit, our grandchildren will have to go too different grandparents. Then the feeling of loneliness with cancer in my own head. I have more self doubt and question everything i do and I have done. Geez , is herceptin bring on full blown PMS. I have to do better and this isn't working for me.
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IDC breast cancer
7/2012 diagnosed with multiple solid lesions
7/20/12 biopsy done. ER+ 30 PR -, HER+++,k167 80% Grade 2
9/2012 biopsy on lymph node - showed malignant
9/2012 Pre-adjunctive TCH chemo.
12/6/12 MRI after Pre-adj.
Results: Modest Decrease in size of left breast malignancy As well as the associated satellite lesions and auxiliary Adenopathy compared to prior study. Doctors hoped for better but good response it didn't grow.
12/18/2012 left masectomy with axillary nodes
Size 3.2 CM, Nottingham score 9/9
Grade 3, no evidence of in situ carcinoma
Areas of angiolymphatic are identified
Carcinoma is 0.5 cm from inked deep
Margin of excision
Attached axillary lymph nodes: metastatic
Carcinoma in 6 of 8 nodes.
Size of largest node 1.5 cm
Extracapsular
ER + 73%, PR+2%, HER2+
2/27/13 6 weeks of IMRT radiation finished
2/2013 Started on Tamoxifan 5 years.
8/2013 will take last Herceptin, 17 treatments total every 3 weeks.
BRCA1 & BRAC2 - Negative
August 28, 2013 DIEP flap on the left breast.
February 2014 Nip & Tuck
March 14, 2014 nipple reconstruction and removed port.
August 14, 2014 lump in lymph nodes under arm and above clavicle. Stage IV
August 28, 2014 herceptin And projeta starting and port put back in.
3/18/15 stopped arimidex.
3/18/15 progression....Tdm1
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