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SusanV · 08-13-2007, 10:33 AM

I have just celebrated my one year cancerversary on 08/03/07....and I don't post much anymore, but check in now and again to read how everyone is doing. I was so moved by this thread, that I had to add my thoughts.

About 6 months after my DX I made a decision to turn my back on cancer the best I could and step back into my life. Don't get me wrong, every three weeks as I sit in the treatment room for my Herceptin, I am forced to think of nothing but cancer....but otherwise I am moving on with all my might.

As for planning...I have told all of my friends and loved ones that I have entered into what I affectionatley have called my "Reckless Abandon Run with Scissors Period" I have told them that it will last at least one year. I am letting go of the plans and reviewing my life's "TO DO" list. I am checking them off one by one...This summer I went on a vacation to Riviera Mya...then went by myself to UTAH to visit a close friend. I jumped off a 30 Foot Cliff in Mexico into a Cenote of 50 feet of water..I rode on the back of a Harley for the first time in my life in Utah, and then I came home and bought my dream car (A volvo). My thoughts about the plans that I am afraid to make or commit to is...IF NOT NOW WHEN ? when will that perfect time be to do all the things I want to do? None of us have the luxury of knowing when it is our "time" to go. In the meantime I am making as many plans as possible..to live each day to the fullest. I really feel fortunate to have taken on this mindset...I hope I never go back to the old me that would carefully over-analyze each decision in my life to the point that I often did nothing. Not any more...For me it is time to RUN WITH SCISSORS FOR AWHILE !

wishing all of you LOVE

08-13-2007, 10:33 AM	#25
SusanV Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: PA Posts: 188	My thoughts I have just celebrated my one year cancerversary on 08/03/07....and I don't post much anymore, but check in now and again to read how everyone is doing. I was so moved by this thread, that I had to add my thoughts. About 6 months after my DX I made a decision to turn my back on cancer the best I could and step back into my life. Don't get me wrong, every three weeks as I sit in the treatment room for my Herceptin, I am forced to think of nothing but cancer....but otherwise I am moving on with all my might. As for planning...I have told all of my friends and loved ones that I have entered into what I affectionatley have called my "Reckless Abandon Run with Scissors Period" I have told them that it will last at least one year. I am letting go of the plans and reviewing my life's "TO DO" list. I am checking them off one by one...This summer I went on a vacation to Riviera Mya...then went by myself to UTAH to visit a close friend. I jumped off a 30 Foot Cliff in Mexico into a Cenote of 50 feet of water..I rode on the back of a Harley for the first time in my life in Utah, and then I came home and bought my dream car (A volvo). My thoughts about the plans that I am afraid to make or commit to is...IF NOT NOW WHEN ? when will that perfect time be to do all the things I want to do? None of us have the luxury of knowing when it is our "time" to go. In the meantime I am making as many plans as possible..to live each day to the fullest. I really feel fortunate to have taken on this mindset...I hope I never go back to the old me that would carefully over-analyze each decision in my life to the point that I often did nothing. Not any more...For me it is time to RUN WITH SCISSORS FOR AWHILE ! wishing all of you LOVE __________________ Susan V - Pittsburgh PA DX Age 37 on August 3, 2006 Stage 1 Grade 3 ER/PR + (Highly Positive) Her 2 +++ 1.3 & 1.2 tumors right breast node negative lumpectomy 8-15-06 A/C Began 9-5-06 Finished A/C 11/6/06 Port Placement 9-15-06 Negative Test for BRAC1 & BRAC2 10-25-06 Began Tamoxofin November 21, 2006 First Herceptin November 27, 2006 Continues every 3 Weeks First Radiation Treatment December 11, 2006 35 Rads Completed Final Herceptin Treatment November 12, 2007 Port Removal November 19, 2007 Living Life to the Fullest !!