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europa · 12-08-2015, 07:03 AM

I went through a separation and legal custody fight during my treatment. And yes, it was Hell. There were days I just wanted to die. It felt like it would of been easier. But one day I woke up and had a million emails from my attorney and God knows how many nasty voicemails from my ex, and right there I decided to stop reacting. I made a conscious decision that that day was the beginning of a life I could live the way I wanted to. I enrolled myself in salsa dancing classes, baking classes and threw myself into yoga daily. I changed the way I ate because, heck, why not, I was cooking for one for once. Everything I did I did to make sure I was happy. Sometimes I would lay on my deck the entire afternoon looking up at the clouds. Other days I would get all dolled up and go for coffee with a friend. Try to do things for yourself.

12-08-2015, 07:03 AM	#5
europa Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Posts: 362	Re: Struggling with divorce, cancer, chemo. Not sure how to survive. Very bad day! I went through a separation and legal custody fight during my treatment. And yes, it was Hell. There were days I just wanted to die. It felt like it would of been easier. But one day I woke up and had a million emails from my attorney and God knows how many nasty voicemails from my ex, and right there I decided to stop reacting. I made a conscious decision that that day was the beginning of a life I could live the way I wanted to. I enrolled myself in salsa dancing classes, baking classes and threw myself into yoga daily. I changed the way I ate because, heck, why not, I was cooking for one for once. Everything I did I did to make sure I was happy. Sometimes I would lay on my deck the entire afternoon looking up at the clouds. Other days I would get all dolled up and go for coffee with a friend. Try to do things for yourself. __________________ DX 10/2011 PET Scan + MRI 10/2011 Lumpectomy 11/11/11 Stage 2B +++ ER+(10%), PR+(5%), HER2+++(1 positive node, 1 micromets to second node) AC started 12/2011 ended 1/2012 Taxol + Herceptin weekly for 12 weeks ended 4/2012 30 zaps of radiation done 6/2012 Tamoxifen 6/2012 every 3 weeks of Herceptin for another year. Metformin Trial 8/12 10/12 MRI- CLEAR 01/13 BRAIN MRI- CLEAR! 01/13 Neck MRI- CLEAR! FINISHED HERCEPTIN 1/9/2013...Woot Woot Starting Walter Reed Vaccine Trial 2/13 CT Scans + ultrasound of abdomen CLEAR-5/13 02/2015 through 11/2015 emergency D&Cs for Tamoxifen induced uterine polyps which caused uncontrollable hemorrhaging 12/2015 blood clot to left leg caused by Tamoxifen. No longer taking it. On Xarelto, a blood thinner 12/2015 Ablation to prevent hemorrhaging from potential issues with Tamoxifen residue in my system 1/2016 continuing journey without hormonal therapy. Reevaluating the option of a hysterectomy and oopherectomy. 4/1/2018 2mm stroke. Yes, stroke! No cause ever found but they believe it was a migraine that went bonkers and created a tiny clot. No deficits. I was back to normal with 24hrs. Now on baby aspirin for life. 7/27/2018 hysterectomy and oopherectomy 01/07/2019 Mastectomy and expanders put in 3/22/2019 Vtach, almost died. Cause unknown. 7/22/2019 New perky boobs put in 7/21/2020 Off of all drugs but a baby aspirin because of the stroke in 2018. www.mychemobag.org www.facebook.com/mychemobag 8 YEARS NED