Andi,
This is actually starting to sink in. The real me is the awareness of the
mean voice - the watcher of the meanie.
So what if the mean voice is right? What if it tells me that I really screwed up and it's true? Can the mean voice ever be correct?
Has anything been written about why we have this ego voice? Is it possible for someone to not ever have it?
Another question. Don't laugh, I am serious. I have felt absolutely wonderful, totally calm, blissful etc. after I take an ativan. Does this mean that I am always walking around in some state of stress? Is the way we are trying to feel, the way we feel on anti-d's and anti-anxiety drugs?
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Dx Aug/05 at age 51
2cm. Stage 2A, Grade 3
ER+/PR-
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Sept 7/05 Mastectomy
4 FAC, 4 Taxol, no radiation
1 year of Herceptin
Tamoxifen for approx. 4 months,
Arimidex for 5 years
Prophylactic mastectomy June 22/09
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