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a revelation
Just wanted to share something with "my people". I have been off all cancer drugs for almost 2 weeks as I wait for my tykerb and xeloda. And while I'm a little freaked that the liver mets are going crazy I also noticed something. I have been on herceptin for 4 and a half years with various chemos and hormonals and more chemos. Some treatments have been rougher than others, but all in all I've managed quite well (thanks to my family and friends and that means all of you). Anyway this morning I got up early with energy and happiness. The likes of which I've not experienced in many years. I cannot believe how much sharper my brain feels, how much clearer things look visually and emotionally. I really think it is being off the herceptin as that has been the constant for so long. I know some is from being off Navelbine, which has been a breeze, but is still chemo. But I'm not kidding, I feel like I did 10 years ago well before cancer diagnosis.
It is startling. I wish I could bottle it and take doses through the next round of treatment (or sell it on the street for big money).
It is bittersweet. I'm so grateful for the illumination, but sad that the xeloda/tykerb will probably interfere with this feeling.
Anyway just had to share.
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with love and gratitude,
joy
dx stage I 2/2000*er/pr+; her- per IHC*lumpectomy*4 rounds A/C*30 rads*tamoxifen*dx stage 4 5/2002*huge mets to liver*tiny mets to lungs*stopped tamoxifen*5/02 taxotere/xeloda*her 2 checked with FiSH-her2+++herceptin *2/03 stopped chemo femara w/herceptin*zolodex*04 switched to aromasin w/herceptin*05 high estrogen tx*11/05taxol/carbo*7/06 stopped chemo; megace/herceptin*9/06navelbine/herceptin*5/07tykerb/xeloda great response*4/08 progression in liver; ooph/ faslodex /herceptin
6/08 began Herceptin DM-1
9/08 progression
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