Yep totally and utterly - seems like I cant get away from it - somehow it always creeps into the conversation, tv, radio, media etc and I feel like saying here we go again but obviously I dont.
I do look well (though dont always feel it - have mets to my liver but due to treatment had chemo now on hecerptine, arimidex, zoladex) I am doing well. I have a disable badge as sometimes get very tired but hardly use it but one day I did and someone had a go at me saying they hope I never get seriously ill - hmmmm did I turn round and say I am - no just burst into tears how sad am I ah? as feel that I sholdn't really be using it even though my mac nurse gets really annoyed and says I should But such is life - and life is wonderful if I could just move those grey clouds aside!
Love and light to you
Love Debs
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