Joanna
I also want to add that one reason I got three opinions on surgery is that I COULD NOT believe that no one told me to get a masectomy. And no one did. I didn't have anyone to ask or lean on so - with 3 opinions all saying lumpectomy, that's what I did. Like you (being about one year out), I fretted over the lumpectomy decision and really regretted not having a bilateral masectomy but I don't anymore. As I said earlier, although I don't want a local recurrence or a new breast cancer, if anything should happen in the future - off with the "girls". So, I am diligent about my monthly breast exams (I have a "name" for the lumpectomy hole in my breast - the "shoot" - ie: down the shoot and up the other side
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I get my mammos on time etc (and they are a little nerve wracking but oh well). I truly understand your concern and question though - totally. I have felt the same as you and many times wished I had had bilateral masectomy but I went in with informed opinions and now, I just go with the flow.