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Believe51 · 08-23-2008, 05:35 AM

Thanks again for the different takes on this situation. I start off saying that this women is pure evil and I say that with the confidence you know I do not speak of anyone like this. Her days of forgiveness has passed, I have spent my entire life looking for her acceptance, understanding her mental incapabilities, forgiving her evil. I will be spending the rest of my life signing her leases (Yeah, something new since he got sick-no more alpha male Ed), I shall treat her like the landlord she is.

I will now try to forgive myself for falling into her traps. For the unworthy times of forgiveness. For the comments that she "DOES NOT CARE if Ed nor her own daughter has breast cancer" (she really proves it too). I will free myself of the lack of love and hugs, for her talking bad about us, for her plotting to interfere. I sacrificed moving away many times so I could be here as she aged, it is the only thing in my life that I ever regretted!!!!

It is, however, so pleasant that these feelings are on top again and not about a sick husband. Without any of you losing respect for me I leave you all with this:

"I" will be spending time letting go of a useless situation!
"I" will be forgiving myself for always giving in!
"I" will be seeking more conselling about this again!!
"I" will move forward on life treating her like a landlord!
"I" will finally release the rest of the negatives about her!
"I" will move on for good this time!
"I" feel free!

"SHE" will not hurt me anymore!
"SHE" will have much time to reflect about why everyone has left her, not just me!
"SHE" will be just a person I rent from!
"SHE" will never give me an iota of what I need!
"SHE" will never probally get it!
"SHE" will never be forgiven again!
"SHE" has left me with no good memories!

It is over and I feeled cleansed.

Thank you all for the replies. I sound so mean. Maybe with counselling things may change but I doubt it. We have been down this road again and it is tiring. No one visits her for a reason. I could give you more reasons from my Mom's or Aunt's point of view but it too is useless.

I love you all and promise to seek the professional advice my mind needs.

In the mean time: 28 days til remission cruise....YeaHaa!!>>Sending You All Love Right From The Bottom Of My Heart

PS: Do not feel sad for me.....I AM VERY LOVED FROM MANY PEOPLE>>>>SOME I HAVE NEVER MET>>WINK>Marie

08-23-2008, 05:35 AM	#9
Believe51 Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: RHODE ISLAND (Ed getting me a latte on 2nd Cancerversary Cruise 2008) 'BELIEVE': To accept as true or real, To have faith in, To presume ALWAYS BELIEVE Posts: 2,999	You guys... Thanks again for the different takes on this situation. I start off saying that this women is pure evil and I say that with the confidence you know I do not speak of anyone like this. Her days of forgiveness has passed, I have spent my entire life looking for her acceptance, understanding her mental incapabilities, forgiving her evil. I will be spending the rest of my life signing her leases (Yeah, something new since he got sick-no more alpha male Ed), I shall treat her like the landlord she is. I will now try to forgive myself for falling into her traps. For the unworthy times of forgiveness. For the comments that she "DOES NOT CARE if Ed nor her own daughter has breast cancer" (she really proves it too). I will free myself of the lack of love and hugs, for her talking bad about us, for her plotting to interfere. I sacrificed moving away many times so I could be here as she aged, it is the only thing in my life that I ever regretted!!!! It is, however, so pleasant that these feelings are on top again and not about a sick husband. Without any of you losing respect for me I leave you all with this: "I" will be spending time letting go of a useless situation! "I" will be forgiving myself for always giving in! "I" will be seeking more conselling about this again!! "I" will move forward on life treating her like a landlord! "I" will finally release the rest of the negatives about her! "I" will move on for good this time! "I" feel free! "SHE" will not hurt me anymore! "SHE" will have much time to reflect about why everyone has left her, not just me! "SHE" will be just a person I rent from! "SHE" will never give me an iota of what I need! "SHE" will never probally get it! "SHE" will never be forgiven again! "SHE" has left me with no good memories! It is over and I feeled cleansed. Thank you all for the replies. I sound so mean. Maybe with counselling things may change but I doubt it. We have been down this road again and it is tiring. No one visits her for a reason. I could give you more reasons from my Mom's or Aunt's point of view but it too is useless. I love you all and promise to seek the professional advice my mind needs. In the mean time: 28 days til remission cruise....YeaHaa!!>>Sending You All Love Right From The Bottom Of My Heart PS: Do not feel sad for me.....I AM VERY LOVED FROM MANY PEOPLE>>>>SOME I HAVE NEVER MET>>WINK>Marie __________________ 9/7/06Husband 50yrs=StageIV IBC/HER2+,BoneMets10/06TaxotereX10,'H'1X wk,Zometa,Tamoxifen4/12/07Last Tax5/18/07Pet=Rapid Cell Activity,No Organ Mets,Lytic Lesions,Degeneration,Some Bone Repair5/07ChemoFail6/01/07Pleural Thoracentisis=Effusions,NoMalignantCells6/19/07+7/2/07DFCI 6/25/07BrainMRI=BrainMets,Many<9mm7/10/07WBR/PelvisRad37.5Gx15&Nutritionist8/19/07T/X9/20/07BrainMRI=2<2mm10/6/07Pet=BoneProgression 10/24/07ChemoFail11/9/07A/Cx10,EndTam12/7/07Faslodex12/10/07Muga7512/13/07BlasticLesions1/7/08BrainMRI=Clear4/1/08Pet=BoneImprovement, NoProgression,Stable4/7/08BrainPerfect5/16/08Last A/C8/26/08BrainMets=10(<9mm)9/10/08Gamma10/30/08Met=5mm12/19/08Gamma5mets5 12/22/08SpinalMets1/14/09SpinalRads2/17/09BrainMRI=NoNewMets4/20/09BoneScan5/14/09Ixempra6/1/09BrainMRI=NumerousMets6/24/09DFCIw/DrBurstein6/26/09Continue Ixempra/Faslodex/Zometa~TM now lower7/17/09Stop Ixempra By Choice9/21/09HOSPICE10/16/09Earned His Deserved Wings And Halo=37 Month Fight w/Stage 4 IBC, Her2+++,My Hero!!