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Jackie07 · 11-14-2011, 05:35 PM

Hi,

Having had two different types of cancer (brain tumor and breast cancer) and recurrences since 1990, I understand your frustration. When does it all end? What's the point fighting? We can't help but wonder the 'purpose of our life' sometimes.

Many years ago I was introduced to Murphy's law: "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong." I remember in winter of 1991 trying to put some holiday decoration on the outside wall/door while there's a light shower. My cognitive function was still in the recovering phase and I had just lost my job. Hubby was going to school at the time and we still owe bunch of the copays to the hospital.

I remember the time when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, and the time when I found the recurrence. Another cognitive decline, another job loss, and another depression episode. It is frustrating. And each time I thought it was the end of the world - but it wasn't.

It takes a lot of courage to share your feelings with fellow cancer fighters. I'm sure that, after getting some of the stuff out of your system, you will regroup and reattack. During the holiday season, we exchange gifts and emphasize "It's the thoughts that count." I think in our cancer-fighting journey we can also say that it is the spirits that count.

You've certainly been exhibiting great spirit!

11-14-2011, 05:35 PM	#6
Jackie07 Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: "Love never fails." Posts: 5,808	Re: Its all going wrong Hi, Having had two different types of cancer (brain tumor and breast cancer) and recurrences since 1990, I understand your frustration. When does it all end? What's the point fighting? We can't help but wonder the 'purpose of our life' sometimes. Many years ago I was introduced to Murphy's law: "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong." I remember in winter of 1991 trying to put some holiday decoration on the outside wall/door while there's a light shower. My cognitive function was still in the recovering phase and I had just lost my job. Hubby was going to school at the time and we still owe bunch of the copays to the hospital. I remember the time when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, and the time when I found the recurrence. Another cognitive decline, another job loss, and another depression episode. It is frustrating. And each time I thought it was the end of the world - but it wasn't. It takes a lot of courage to share your feelings with fellow cancer fighters. I'm sure that, after getting some of the stuff out of your system, you will regroup and reattack. During the holiday season, we exchange gifts and emphasize "It's the thoughts that count." I think in our cancer-fighting journey we can also say that it is the spirits that count. You've certainly been exhibiting great spirit! __________________ Jackie07 http://www.kevinmd.com/blog/2011/06/doctors-letter-patient-newly-diagnosed-cancer.html http://www.asco.org/ASCOv2/MultiMedi...=114&trackID=2 NICU 4.4 LB Erythema Nodosum 85 Life-long Central Neurocytoma 4x5x6.5 cm 23 hrs 62090 semi-coma 10 d PT OT ST 30 d 3 Infertility tmts 99 > 3 u. fibroids > Pills CN 3 GKRS 52301 IDC 1.2 cm Her2 +++ ER 5% R. Lmptmy SLNB+1 71703 6 FEC 33 R Tamoxifen Recc IIB 2.5 cm Bi-L Mast 61407 2/9 nds PET 6 TCH Cellulitis - Lymphedema - compression sleeve & glove H w x 4 MUGA 51 D, J 49 M Diastasis recti Tamoxifen B. scan Irrtbl bowel 1'09 Colonoscopy 313 BRCA1 V1247I hptc hemangioma Vertigo GI - > yogurt hysterectomy/oophorectomy 011410 Exemestane 25 mg tab 102912 ~ 101016 stopped due to r. hip/l.thigh pain after long walk DEXA 1/13 1-2016 lesions in liver largest 9mm & 1.3 cm onco. says not cancer. 3-11 Appendectomy - visually O.K., a lot of puss. Final path result - not cancer. Start Vitamin D3 and Calcium supplement （600mg x2) 10-10 Stopped Exemestane due to r. hip/l.thigh pain OKed by Onco 11-08-2016 7-23-2018 9 mm groundglass nodule within the right lower lobe with indolent behavior. Due to possible adenocarcinoma, Recommend annual surveilence. 7-10-2019 CT to check lung nodule. 1-10-2020 8mm stable nodule on R Lung, two 6mm new ones on L Lung, a possible lymph node involvement in inter fissule. "I WANT TO BE AN OUTRAGEOUS OLD WOMAN WHO NEVER GETS CALLED AN OLD LADY. I WANT TO GET SHARP EDGED & EARTH COLORED, TILL I FADE AWAY FROM PURE JOY." Irene from Tampa Advocacy is a passion .. not a pastime - Joe Last edited by Jackie07; 11-15-2011 at 02:08 PM..