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Andrea Barnett Budin · 03-30-2013, 10:52 AM

Hey Chris -- YOU we all miss!

Just wanted to say, after my 9 mnths of Taxotere (combined w/Vitamin H) I couldn't take any more. Positive me just started crying in the seriously backed-up chemo room, w/a 2 hr wait, and around 5 hrs of drip to go. My onc saw me and was suddenly aware -- NO MORE TAXOTERE FOR YOU. IN FACT, YOU CAN SKIP IT TODAY. No, I said, I'll give it one more try. My multiple tumors had shrunk but still existed. THERE'S NO REASON TO THINK THAT HERCEPTIN ALONE CAN'T KEEP YOU STABLE, he offered.

I went home, got into bed, and stayed there like a still life for 6 weeks. Oh, I did get up to go to the bathroom, and to go for my ev 3 wk Vit H. I was wiped.

Apparently the death of cancer cells is full of inflammation and swelling (inside), interferes with oxygen flow in the bloodstream, blah, blah, blah. I could not move. BUT -- I "KNEW" THAT I WAS IN A PROCESS OF HEALING.

I believe, Missy Chrissy that is where you are. You are healing. Quietly. As you have no choice. But you will rise again!

I had the TV on all day as I lay in my awake coma. Then, one day, I saw my pointer finger was raised and moving with the music I was hearing. I was alive! The music greeted me as I became reborn. A compelling tune I couldn't resist moving to, and for.

Give yourself time, Chrissy. Do not despair. You are in the process of healing. Your cancer cells are dying, and causing much havoc, but it is worth it all. And we here -- we're all with you. Singing to you, on the sidelines, sending you heaps of love and hugs streaming your way.

Gosh, I hope someone is reading allllll your Sister's posts to you. May it serve to help you. Be still. Drink when you can, as often as you possibly can. Eat a handful of nuts or whatever to keep alive and feed your body. Sleep. It is very therapeutic. The body restores itself and repairs during sleep.

With ever-loving hugs,

03-30-2013, 10:52 AM	#110
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Now I'm doing what??? Hey Chris -- YOU we all miss! Just wanted to say, after my 9 mnths of Taxotere (combined w/Vitamin H) I couldn't take any more. Positive me just started crying in the seriously backed-up chemo room, w/a 2 hr wait, and around 5 hrs of drip to go. My onc saw me and was suddenly aware -- NO MORE TAXOTERE FOR YOU. IN FACT, YOU CAN SKIP IT TODAY. No, I said, I'll give it one more try. My multiple tumors had shrunk but still existed. THERE'S NO REASON TO THINK THAT HERCEPTIN ALONE CAN'T KEEP YOU STABLE, he offered. I went home, got into bed, and stayed there like a still life for 6 weeks. Oh, I did get up to go to the bathroom, and to go for my ev 3 wk Vit H. I was wiped. Apparently the death of cancer cells is full of inflammation and swelling (inside), interferes with oxygen flow in the bloodstream, blah, blah, blah. I could not move. BUT -- I "KNEW" THAT I WAS IN A PROCESS OF HEALING. I believe, Missy Chrissy that is where you are. You are healing. Quietly. As you have no choice. But you will rise again! I had the TV on all day as I lay in my awake coma. Then, one day, I saw my pointer finger was raised and moving with the music I was hearing. I was alive! The music greeted me as I became reborn. A compelling tune I couldn't resist moving to, and for. Give yourself time, Chrissy. Do not despair. You are in the process of healing. Your cancer cells are dying, and causing much havoc, but it is worth it all. And we here -- we're all with you. Singing to you, on the sidelines, sending you heaps of love and hugs streaming your way. Gosh, I hope someone is reading allllll your Sister's posts to you. May it serve to help you. Be still. Drink when you can, as often as you possibly can. Eat a handful of nuts or whatever to keep alive and feed your body. Sleep. It is very therapeutic. The body restores itself and repairs during sleep. With ever-loving hugs, __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...