[Merry]

Thank you very much for your kind words and thoughts. I try to do the best I can but sometimes I forget to be as nice as I can be and Mom and I will 'spar' like we have done all our lives but this time I can't just go home and leave her alone for a few days. Usually when that would happen, we'd not talk for a couple of days and then I'd call her to see if she wants to go shopping and we'd act like nothing happened. It's so different now but then I think the last thing I should do is treat her differently.
I'm walking a rope without a net and I'm happy I thought to see about cancer care message boards because I am alone in dealing with this pain, and it's a pain I never have felt before. Life is so good but it sure can suck sometimes.....