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Re: Is there any Holiday Hope?
I have dated someone through out this time and he lives an hour and half away. I think he expects me to be able to go and do, not complain, not cry and live like cancer never happened. I want to do that but I am in some sort of pain everyday then it gets to you.
He doesn't get it, my ex doesn't get it and my son avoided it. The job is something before cancer I would have loved the opportunity to have. I have always been a conservative person and never seem to have done just because I wanted to. I would be really afraid to take on a new job and it's challenged but now I don't want to live status quo.
I put it In God's hands and if they interview me and would want to hire me then I will decide. It's the kind of job I would have wanted years ago that challenged my mind, never boring (good, bad or indifferent).
I want to be happy again and truly happy and love myself because I know I come from a pure heart. It seems the men in my life I have always missed the mark. Every day I have seems like a sense of urgency because of the fear of it being taken away.
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myleftlump.wordpress.com - started blogging my
IDC breast cancer
7/2012 diagnosed with multiple solid lesions
7/20/12 biopsy done. ER+ 30 PR -, HER+++,k167 80% Grade 2
9/2012 biopsy on lymph node - showed malignant
9/2012 Pre-adjunctive TCH chemo.
12/6/12 MRI after Pre-adj.
Results: Modest Decrease in size of left breast malignancy As well as the associated satellite lesions and auxiliary Adenopathy compared to prior study. Doctors hoped for better but good response it didn't grow.
12/18/2012 left masectomy with axillary nodes
Size 3.2 CM, Nottingham score 9/9
Grade 3, no evidence of in situ carcinoma
Areas of angiolymphatic are identified
Carcinoma is 0.5 cm from inked deep
Margin of excision
Attached axillary lymph nodes: metastatic
Carcinoma in 6 of 8 nodes.
Size of largest node 1.5 cm
Extracapsular
ER + 73%, PR+2%, HER2+
2/27/13 6 weeks of IMRT radiation finished
2/2013 Started on Tamoxifan 5 years.
8/2013 will take last Herceptin, 17 treatments total every 3 weeks.
BRCA1 & BRAC2 - Negative
August 28, 2013 DIEP flap on the left breast.
February 2014 Nip & Tuck
March 14, 2014 nipple reconstruction and removed port.
August 14, 2014 lump in lymph nodes under arm and above clavicle. Stage IV
August 28, 2014 herceptin And projeta starting and port put back in.
3/18/15 stopped arimidex.
3/18/15 progression....Tdm1
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