[MJo]

You are right, Alice. Dying is natural. Being born is a big deal, dying is a big deal and living is (hopefully) the good part in between. When the time comes, I hope I can die as well as I tried to live. Right now I'm not doing such a good job on the in-between part. Have to go to a gastro doctor because my gall bladder is inflamed and liver is slightly swollen. I am so sick of doctors. Can't seem to get away from them. On the other hand, thank God I have good health care and don't have to fight for my tests. And I am definitely watching my fats.

As for the Femara aches, I live with them now. I hobble around in the morning, kind of hunched over, and it gets better the more I move. I look forward to the end of my 5 years. I am in a clinical trial now, and if I stay in, I could get femara for another 5 years. I think I will refuse.