[Ellie F]

Wow Andi
I read Marilyns post earlier and it really struck a cord with me especially the ongoing struggle with side effects even after a bout of treatment is finished. I then read yours about taxotere which so eloquently voiced my own experiences over the past 4 months with taxotere.
Nothing in the world prepares you for this cancer journey. I recently told my Minister that I now truly believe there is a hell on earth! Perhaps the worst part of the hell is being stalked by a background ofconstant fear that sneaks up when you least expect it, then bang the whole reservoir of past fears floods back with vengence.
I believe it 's possible to gain mastery through meditation over fear and negative voices and messages in your head but I think this, like most things, requires perseverence and practice. I'm not sure that I have got near yet but I keep on trying!
Love Ellie