[KatherineM]

So I broke the cyberknife. Had to reboot the computer with 15 minutes to go. Lovely. Took an ativan and came home to nap for a few hours. Feeling sleepy, but normal enough. Yesterday, I had some unsteadiness and shaking, and was worried, but it seems to have been nerves - I was very anxious and scared - and maybe not some accelerated worsening. Will get Halven and add Tykerb back tomorrow, my 59th birthday. Then another brain MRI in April to see what the little lesions are doing. Felt so surreal to get the cyberknife today - lying down with the mask on, as the robot wheeled around the room, squealing, beeping, and bopping, knowing that it was periodically zapping my brain with high doses of radiation. Unpleasant, but minimally invasive. No pain. No blood. No knife. Just the powerful invisible force of a substance used in military weaponry, for great destruction, or, in this case, for individual healing. Strangeness. But gratitude. I hope it works! Thanks, you guys, your support means more and more to me, as we share this journey. People say I'm brave, and maybe I am, but I wouldn't be if I hadn't had to have been. Will I make it to 60? Big deal in Korean culture. I hope so!