[Joy]

Hey Sweetie, A/C is really tough and it can take a tough outlook and trash it quite quickly. I have worked with dozens and dozens of breast cancer patients and have been there myself. It is almost universal (in my experience) that the third A/C is where resolve begins to dissapate. There is something so negatively compounding about actually feeling so sick after a cancer diagnosis before which most of us felt fine. It can scare you to the core. One of the funniest conversations I had with my specialist was when he asked me if I had felt symptomatic prior to my re-diagnosis (I was doing Taxotere/Xeloda at the time) and I said, "Not until you people got a hold of me," and he replied, "Oh, we can take an asymptomatic person and make them symptomatic in a snap!".

It all passes and your resiliency will be proven. Let the tears and the sobs wash away and purge the fears. Use some complementary therapies to strengthen your body (acupuncture, massage, healing touch, etc.) while the drugs are tearing apart the cancer and you. It makes a big difference.

Thinking of you!