Oh Sheila, I'm so very sorry, I lost my Mum only six weeks ago and we were very close also so I'm having a hard time getting used to life without her
You're right, we're never ready, my Mum was 83 and very healthy and independant so it was very unexpected, it was a nice way for her to go but so hard for us
My thoughts are with you and I can relate to how you're feeling right now.
((((hugs))))