[Laurel]

Oh Pam, such eloquence in your post. You capture the essence of a battle with cancer in your expressive words, "I should be - and am - grateful to be doing this well yet as you know this constant 'game' of living from one test to the next is torture." The wondering and pondering the many twists and turns in the path to whatever outcome is a lesson in mastery of our fears and hopes, of disappointments and acceptances.

I hate cancer for what is wrecks in your life. I weep because I admire you so, and wish I could ease your suffering. And we do suffer though we are not supposed to share, only among ourselves can we admit to fearing the future, wondering about tomorrows.

Thank you for touching my life, Pam. You are amazing in your strength and gentle resolve. I believe you have a great deal more life in you. I am praying that xeloda kicks those ca cells in their butts!

Your fan,
Laurel