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To all the fantastic people who post with happy and sad news I am forever grateful. I don't feel so alone when I come to visit the board, I'm not a regular poster but I value the support and encouragement each and everyone shares.... I can relate.
I come to you to share what this last six weeks have been for me and I hope that you can see I am a fighter and I'm not ready to give anything up!!! Feb 4th I was told my cancer had spread to my liver.... it's been living in my lungs for over three years now with no symptoms. Now this nasty liver mets... all 4 of them have started a path on a very steep hill downward.
I was to add Taxol to the Herceptin that I've been recieving since my recurrance.... but I devolped a blood clot in my arm and my lower right lung, this put me in hospital for 4 days. I am home recovering... or trying to recover and I continue with the cough same as I had with the blood clot, we do a sputum test and it's OK... on Tuesday. Have chemo on Wednesday and seem Ok, well Thursday night the fever goes up and off to the emerg dept I go , chest xray shows pneumonia in both lungs.... IV anitbiotic started and I was released the next day.... that's been a week ago now. I think today was the closest I've had to a normal day since sometime back in Feb........ I feel like I've had just about all I can take... I guess I'm just so run down physcially and emotionally I feel like I'm running low on fuel...... so sorry for my rambles I try to think postive and most times I can do that but right now it's just not there..... Has anyone else been in a situation like this and if so what did they do????? I have turned into the hermit lady that doesn't want to leave the house...
Thanks for letting me vent my frustrations.... take care and god bless all....
Patricia