[Laurel]

Yes, Tricia, we do, but it is so easier said than done! I wrote those fighting words as much for me as for you. Those endlessly haunting what ifs....! I tell myself that my future is no less certain than it was pre-cancer, meaning that none of us holds our futures in our hands. Those who have not yet survived a serious illness are no more assured of a tomorrow than the rest of us. It just seems as though our futures are more murky shrouded with the dread of a recurrence, but in truth the odds are in our favor that the loathsome cancer will not return to darken our lives yet again.

I find the mental game of staying positive tedious at times and very wearing on my resolve to live in the NOW. How I wish I could just be like the sparrows and not worry. It really is an utter waste of time when you think on it!

Ah well, I do so hope you have a peaceful and lovely Christmas and that God grants you freedom from the hounding what ifs. I wish that for all of us. May God Bless Us One And All!