[Laurel]

Tricia,

I do not know, but I'm feelin' good vibes for you, Girlfriend. Seriously, I just think this is a no go and you are gonna be around, NED for a long time. Damn spooky stuff this cancer. Never get to relax though, do we? Never can brush off those aches and pains, can we? On the positive side, cancer causes us to live each moment and even treasure them as they are occurring because we want to be so "present" in each moment. The Christmas season really brings this to the forefront for all of us. That nagging question that lies just so shallowly beneath the surface of our seemingly normal lives. You know the one...will I be here?....to do this again?....next Christmas?....to see my next?....anniversary?....graduation?....birth?....

So what do we do? We live in our moments, because by living we matter, we make a difference, we touch lives, and we know we will be missed....if...

BUT that nagging, endless "if" is not for now. It may be for tomorrow, but not this day.....not this year....not this now.

Live in the now. Tomorrow is another day. Rest in the knowledge that all futures are uncertain, some of us just know that more acutely than others. We survivors know how fragile and tenuous live is. Believe until some one tells you not to and then tell 'em to go to hell and go on believing! Believe in your tomorrows.....

Wishing you a very Merry Christmas 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016 2017, 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021, 2022, 2023, 2024, 2025,2026,2027,2028,2029, 2030............!