[chrisy]

I feel grateful - appreciative, yes. thankful, yes. I do not take life for granted any more.

I also feel sadness and fear - and like Flori I wonder if this will be "the last". (I honestly thought last year would be "the last"). So I guess that makes me want to make it "the best". I'm actually more mellow than I've been in the past - maybe I'm finally learning to appreciate what is important. nah, I'm probably just tired.

Like Mary Jo, I do not feel guilty about being alive - but I do wonder why I am still alive when so many other people who loved life just as much and fought even harder are not. I've learned to just wonder about out it and trust that God has his purpose.

The next few weeks, I expect to feel stressed...because of all the time commitments I have compared to the amount of time available. Having said that, maybe I can work on stepping back and focusing on what is most important.