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I agree with Steph. Don't beat yourself up for not already have forgiven, pray for the ability to be able to forgive and move on. Cheating in a relationship is probably the hardest thing I can think of to forgive, but if you can it will release you more that it will him since, as Chrisy has already pointed out, the anger's pain and hurt is only directed at yourself (does not phase him in the least). You are worth more than that, girl! You are worth more than needing an ex-husbands acknowledgment! Sounds like from your earlier post that your boyfriend has recognized that you are soo worth it.