Re: ~In-Patient Hospice For Mighty Oak~Letting Go....
I re-read your post and although this may be superfluous, wanted to say this. Please don't forget to live in the here-and-now. You can work later, and fight this beast called cancer, but right now, you need to be where you are. Not all the time, perhaps, but you will find later that this is part of letting go, of adjusting to a new normal.
I missed out on that when my brother died, because I wasn't there, and it haunted me for years. Even though Ed isn't his old self, he's still here in a way. Give yourself time, hard and heartbreaking as it is. It will help you to live on the way he wants, or wanted, you to.
Warm snuggly hugs for you, sweet girl.
Love
Jacqueline
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Diagnosed age 44, January 2004, 0.7 cm IDC & DCIS. Stage 1, grade 3, ER/PR pos. HER2 pos. clear margins, no nodes. SNB. 35 rads. On Zoladex and Armidex since Dec. 2004. Stopped Zoladex/Arimidex sept 2009 Still taking mistletoe shots (CAM therapy) Doing fine.
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