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vickie h · 09-25-2009, 01:41 PM

Dearest sister,
I have been gone and just came on today. I am heartbroken knowing what you are going through. It's Ok to get mad at God! I can't tell you how many times I've raised up in anger against him only to find him still waiting patiently in my heart. His presence will never leave you no matter how sad, angry or filled with despair as you walk this monumental road. I am so sorry that you have to go through this, I truly am. Time is the greatest healer and God brought Ed to you and will gently take him in his arms again.
But in the meantime, scream, cry, throw things....whatever you feel. This is the worst pain I can imagine. The cruelest reality.
I'm praying for you around the clock, my dear friend.
I love you,
Vickie

09-25-2009, 01:41 PM	#21
vickie h Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: san luis obispo, ca Posts: 1,150	Re: ~Okay, 30 Minute Conversation and I Don't Understand A Word!!!!! Dearest sister, I have been gone and just came on today. I am heartbroken knowing what you are going through. It's Ok to get mad at God! I can't tell you how many times I've raised up in anger against him only to find him still waiting patiently in my heart. His presence will never leave you no matter how sad, angry or filled with despair as you walk this monumental road. I am so sorry that you have to go through this, I truly am. Time is the greatest healer and God brought Ed to you and will gently take him in his arms again. But in the meantime, scream, cry, throw things....whatever you feel. This is the worst pain I can imagine. The cruelest reality. I'm praying for you around the clock, my dear friend. I love you, Vickie __________________ Love and Hugs, Vickie Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, It's about learning to dance in the rain. Feb 04 IBC IIIC/IV er-/pr- her2+++ 3/04 TCH X4 7/ 04 MRM 9/04 Taxol/herceptin wkly 1 yr 33X rads 11/04 skin mets 33x rads,10/05 Avast/Herc. 11 mos. 8/ 06 PET mets lymphs, neck 9/ 06 Navelbine/herceptin 11/ 06 PET NED 2/ 07 skin mets, 4/07 Xeloda, 5/07 add Tykerb 2/ 08 Tykerb failed. Doxil /Herceptin 6 months 8/08 PET skin mets, 8/08 Abraxane/Avastin 11/ 08 PET prog., skin mets 1/09 PET/CT progress, 1/09 Ixempra, 2/09 add Xeloda and low dose Naltrexone 2/09 off Ixempra/Xeloda 3/09 navelbine/herc/cytoxin 4/09 PET shows regress.7/09 start Topotecan. Failed. 8/09 extensive mets rgt brst, back and torso. starting Pazopanib clinical trial.