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Believe51 · 07-01-2009, 10:25 AM

Today's Joy: Standing in the middle of the driveway during a fierce thunderstorm, the cold slapping of rain on my face, the ground shaking beneath my feet, the daytime sky lighting up. I have been fighting sadness lately, go figure, and I want to just say I pushed it aside for another brief moment. I did not think of the dangers of this action, I did not worry about dangers this storm could supply, I just thought that I 'was'. For the time I stood in the cold rain getting pelleted by stinging rain I listened to the intense quiet. I was free of fear, even free of thoughts of cancer, I felt total peace....with myself and with life.

Now is this recommended for others....Ah....NO. "Please do not try this at home." (lol). But I felt liberated and free from all bad. This short time alone in the rain has filled me with happiness. It is a reminder for me to come in out of the rain and dry off. The thoughts of cancer have fled back into my mind and I think I will try the same approach. We have been there in the rain, dangers surrounding us, and it is time to dry off and remain safe.>>Believe51

07-01-2009, 10:25 AM	#399
Believe51 Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: RHODE ISLAND (Ed getting me a latte on 2nd Cancerversary Cruise 2008) 'BELIEVE': To accept as true or real, To have faith in, To presume ALWAYS BELIEVE Posts: 2,999	Today's Joy: Standing in the middle of the driveway during a fierce thunderstorm, the cold slapping of rain on my face, the ground shaking beneath my feet, the daytime sky lighting up. I have been fighting sadness lately, go figure, and I want to just say I pushed it aside for another brief moment. I did not think of the dangers of this action, I did not worry about dangers this storm could supply, I just thought that I 'was'. For the time I stood in the cold rain getting pelleted by stinging rain I listened to the intense quiet. I was free of fear, even free of thoughts of cancer, I felt total peace....with myself and with life. Now is this recommended for others....Ah....NO. "Please do not try this at home." (lol). But I felt liberated and free from all bad. This short time alone in the rain has filled me with happiness. It is a reminder for me to come in out of the rain and dry off. The thoughts of cancer have fled back into my mind and I think I will try the same approach. We have been there in the rain, dangers surrounding us, and it is time to dry off and remain safe.>>Believe51 __________________ 9/7/06Husband 50yrs=StageIV IBC/HER2+,BoneMets10/06TaxotereX10,'H'1X wk,Zometa,Tamoxifen4/12/07Last Tax5/18/07Pet=Rapid Cell Activity,No Organ Mets,Lytic Lesions,Degeneration,Some Bone Repair5/07ChemoFail6/01/07Pleural Thoracentisis=Effusions,NoMalignantCells6/19/07+7/2/07DFCI 6/25/07BrainMRI=BrainMets,Many<9mm7/10/07WBR/PelvisRad37.5Gx15&Nutritionist8/19/07T/X9/20/07BrainMRI=2<2mm10/6/07Pet=BoneProgression 10/24/07ChemoFail11/9/07A/Cx10,EndTam12/7/07Faslodex12/10/07Muga7512/13/07BlasticLesions1/7/08BrainMRI=Clear4/1/08Pet=BoneImprovement, NoProgression,Stable4/7/08BrainPerfect5/16/08Last A/C8/26/08BrainMets=10(<9mm)9/10/08Gamma10/30/08Met=5mm12/19/08Gamma5mets5 12/22/08SpinalMets1/14/09SpinalRads2/17/09BrainMRI=NoNewMets4/20/09BoneScan5/14/09Ixempra6/1/09BrainMRI=NumerousMets6/24/09DFCIw/DrBurstein6/26/09Continue Ixempra/Faslodex/Zometa~TM now lower7/17/09Stop Ixempra By Choice9/21/09HOSPICE10/16/09Earned His Deserved Wings And Halo=37 Month Fight w/Stage 4 IBC, Her2+++,My Hero!!