[Believe51]

Flori, I am so sorry that you are in such tough circumstannces. Like I said in Sheila's thread, I wish sometimes that I could jump on a plane just to give a hug.

Beau is one lucky boy to have been loved and cared for by you. This decision was probally just as hard to come up with as what to do next cancerwise. It saddens me to hear that you can not care for him like you ideally want to. You have tried to give him your all but it cannot be balanced. Sometimes choices are made for us, unfair as that sounds. It takes on hell of a person to admit that you can not give him the care you feels he deserves. I cried for you when I heard what you need to do. I cried not only for Beau but for your loss as well.

Well Girlie, two more days left of radiation, maybe one after this post. I appreciated how you worded that the cancer is not everywhere. Ed really needed your post last night. Once more he is at those same crossroads. I do not ever compare one journey with another, they are all tailored differently. Yet, sometimes when I read your honest feelings, I see my husband in your words. You have helped him more than you shall ever know.

I am sending you special positive thoughts and some healing prayers for today. You are always in my heart and your adoption into my heart has made me a better caregiver for my best friend. Before I go I want to say that we are still planning to dance with NED together. Get your dancing shoes ready and polished woman!! I love you like a sister, Flori and Ed and I are blessed to know such a special person.

Also, as I read your post I shuttered to think where we would all be without one another. Ewww, I cannot even go there!>>Believe51